She lived in the present. Her self-image was now. Those faded Kodak moments in high gloss seemed distant; more like a recounted dream than a personal past.
First funny-bone bruise.
First kiss.
Second kiss.
Learning stick.
It was ‘her’, but it wasn’t her, for she existed only now. A peep in her vanity exposed that second her staring back, somewhere behind the tiny quicksilver sheet. Unreachable. Detached. Removed. She lifted the mirror close, watched her draw in her breath, fell into her eye, through the iris, past the pupil—black, drowning pupil— to her mind—and for a moment… she was one.
What does autonoesis mean? You undoubtedly made it up since dictionary.com doesn't know it and dictionary.com is all-word-knowing.
ReplyDeleteWow i really like this. Camera? Am I reading too much into it?
ReplyDeleteP.S. Chris, autonoesis is a type of consciousness that allows one to be aware of oneself as a continuous identity/person over time.