A Thoughtless Mistake

I’m not sure I have what it takes to be a man.
I hate my spine and my thick skull,
The shadow of my obstinacy and forgetfulness.
How many times must I learn these lessons?
Men are to be held to an elevated code,
And though I was born with the code inside,
My baser emotions sometimes flop out first
Followed by my horrified thoughts.
Rationalizations are excuses.
I must say one excruciating thing:
I’m sorry,
Blame no one but me,
I shouldn’t need to learn this lesson,
I am no man.
Please give me the chance to try again.